Listening to Thirteen by Big Star

So the hair experiment goes on.....
I leave in a couple of weeks or so for a very very very close and old friend's wedding. He's marrying another very very close friend. My high school sweetheart will be there. While this doesn't fill my waking hours with any tangible dread there is still a subconscious infiltration of residual feelings. I have had a couple of dreams here and there. I have stopped attaching any significance to them. I suppose that we all have some sort of person in our past that we all felt strongly about. Now I wish that the celebration is just that - a celebration. That maybe I can have some sort of bittersweet closure to feelings that were once so powerful and now just occupy a special place in my heart. She is married now and all the words we said and things we wrote and felt are just remnants of two people that have long ceased to exist. I am sure that there are pieces of the 16 year old I was still in me. I just hope that none of them decide to surface. Especially cause she's married and a lawyer and I am pretty sure her husband is a pretty tough dude.
Been working like a dog - 5 nights a week. I think I may be maxing out at 40 hours a week since...well....since I left college. It's strange - how cyclical things can get. How if you're conscious of it you can break free of habits that you have been in for so long. Maybe that's another key to getting older - identification of habits and the eventual breaking of them. I know that i haven't been as dedicated as I should be to this thing, but little of any import has occurred. Or at least anything that i want to relate to the internet public. Just more of the same old wandering. But things are pretty good. I feel alright - started smoking again. Have taken to enjoying my Air Conditioner WAY too much. Had a brief 2 day iPod scare and am now "resting" it. But the couple of tries I have given it lately seem to allay my fears. Apparently my Mom told me that my niece told her that she missed me. That was nice. I guess if I have to say anything negative it is just that I rarely wish on stars anymore. And when I do I am always at a loss as to what to wish for. I know this may seem trivial but you are talking to someone who has obsessively wished on stars since he was a wee bairn. It's a little disconcerting to me. That's all for now.